desperate remedies-第40章

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from　the　smooth　stagnant　surface　tinged　his　face　with　the　greenish
shades　of　Correggio's　nudes。　　Staves　of　sunlight　slanted　down
through　the　still　pool；　lighting　it　up　with　wonderful　distinctness。
Hundreds　of　thousands　of　minute　living　creatures　sported　and　tumbled
in　its　depth　with　every　contortion　that　gaiety　could　suggest；
perfectly　happy；　though　consisting　only　of　a　head；　or　a　tail；　or　at
most　a　head　and　a　tail；　and　all　doomed　to　die　within　the　twenty…four
hours。

'Damn　my　position！　　Why　shouldn't　I　be　happy　through　my　little　day
too？　　Let　the　parish　sneer　at　my　repulses；　let　it。　　I'll　get　her；　if
I　move　heaven　and　earth　to　do　it！'

Indeed；　the　inexperienced　Cytherea　had；　towards　Edward　in　the　first
place；　and　Manston　afterwards；　unconsciously　adopted　bearings　that
would　have　been　the　very　tactics　of　a　professional　fisher　of　men　who
wished　to　have　them　each　successively　dangling　at　her　heels。　　For　if
any　rule　at　all　can　be　laid　down　in　a　matter　which；　for　men
collectively；　is　notoriously　beyond　regulation；　it　is　that　to　snub　a
petted　man；　and　to　pet　a　snubbed　man；　is　the　way　to　win　in　suits　of
both　kinds。　　Manston　with　Springrove's　encouragement　would　have
become　indifferent。　　Edward　with　Manston's　repulses　would　have
sheered　off　at　the　outset；　as　he　did　afterwards。　　Her　supreme
indifference　added　fuel　to　Manston's　ardourit　completely　disarmed
his　pride。　　The　invulnerable　Nobody　seemed　greater　to　him　than　a
susceptible　Princess。

4。　　FROM　THE　TWENTY…FIRST　OF　JUNE　TO　THE　END　OF　JULY

Cytherea　had　in　the　meantime　received　the　following　letter　from　her
brother。　　It　was　the　first　definite　notification　of　the　enlargement
of　that　cloud　no　bigger　than　a　man's　hand　which　had　for　nearly　a
twelvemonth　hung　before　them　in　the　distance；　and　which　was　soon　to
give　a　colour　to　their　whole　sky　from　horizon　to　horizon。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　'BUDMOUTH　REGIS；

Saturday。

'DARLING　SIS；I　have　delayed　telling　you　for　a　long　time　of　a
little　matter　which；　though　not　one　to　be　seriously　alarmed　about；
is　sufficiently　vexing；　and　it　would　be　unfair　in　me　to　keep　it　from
you　any　longer。　　It　is　that　for　some　time　past　I　have　again　been
distressed　by　that　lameness　which　I　first　distinctly　felt　when　we
went　to　Lulstead　Cove；　and　again　when　I　left　Knapwater　that　morning
early。　　It　is　an　unusual　pain　in　my　left　leg；　between　the　knee　and
the　ankle。　　I　had　just　found　fresh　symptoms　of　it　when　you　were　here
for　that　half…hour　about　a　month　agowhen　you　said　in　fun　that　I
began　to　move　like　an　old　man。　　I　had　a　good　mind　to　tell　you　then；
but　fancying　it　would　go　off　in　a　few　days；　I　thought　it　was　not
worth　while。　　Since　that　time　it　has　increased；　but　I　am　still　able
to　work　in　the　office；　sitting　on　the　stool。　　My　great　fear　is　that
Mr。　G。　will　have　some　out…door　measuring　work　for　me　to　do　soon；　and
that　I　shall　be　obliged　to　decline　it。　　However；　we　will　hope　for
the　best。　　How　it　came；　what　was　its　origin；　or　what　it　tends　to；　I
cannot　think。　　You　shall　hear　again　in　a　day　or　two；　if　it　is　no
better。　。　。Your　loving　brother；　OWEN。'

This　she　answered；　begging　to　know　the　worst；　which　she　could　bear；
but　suspense　and　anxiety　never。　　In　two　days　came　another　letter
from　him；　of　which　the　subjoined　paragraph　is　a　portion：

'I　had　quite　decided　to　let　you　know　the　worst；　and　to　assure　you
that　it　was　the　worst；　before　you　wrote　to　ask　it。　　And　again　I　give
you　my　word　that　I　will　conceal　nothingso　that　there　will　be　no
excuse　whatever　for　your　wearing　yourself　out　with　fears　that　I　am
worse　than　I　say。　　This　morning　then；　for　the　first　time；　I　have
been　obliged　to　stay　away　from　the　office。　　Don't　be　frightened　at
this；　dear　Cytherea。　　Rest　is　all　that　is　wanted；　and　by　nursing
myself　now　for　a　week；　I　may　avoid　an　illness　of　six　months。'

After　a　visit　from　her　he　wrote　again：

'Dr。　Chestman　has　seen　me。　　He　said　that　the　ailment　was　some　sort
of　rheumatism；　and　I　am　now　undergoing　proper　treatment　for　its
cure。　　My　leg　and　foot　have　been　placed　in　hot　bran；　liniments　have
been　applied；　and　also　severe　friction　with　a　pad。　　He　says　I　shall
be　as　right　as　ever　in　a　very　short　time。　　Directly　I　am　I　shall　run
up　by　the　train　to　see　you。　　Don't　trouble　to　come　to　me　if　Miss
Aldclyffe　grumbles　again　about　your　being　away；　for　I　am　going　on
capitally。　。　。　。　　You　shall　hear　again　at　the　end　of　the　week。'

At　the　time　mentioned　came　the　following：

'I　am　sorry　to　tell　you；　because　I　know　it　will　be　so　disheartening
after　my　last　letter；　that　I　am　not　so　well　as　I　was　then；　and　that
there　has　been　a　sort　of　hitch　in　the　proceedings。　　After　I　had　been
treated　for　rheumatism　a　few　days　longer　（in　which　treatment　they
pricked　the　place　with　a　long　needle　several　times；）　I　saw　that　Dr。
Chestman　was　in　doubt　about　something；　and　I　requested　that　he　would
call　in　a　brother　professional　man　to　see　me　as　well。　　They
consulted　together　and　then　told　me　that　rheumatism　was　not　the
disease　after　all；　but　erysipelas。　　They　then　began　treating　it
differently；　as　became　a　different　matter。　　Blisters；　flour；　and
starch；　seem　to　be　the　order　of　the　day　nowmedicine；　of　course；
besides。

'Mr。　Gradfield　has　been　in　to　inquire　about　me。　　He　says　he　has　been
obliged　to　get　a　designer　in　my　place；　which　grieves　me　very　much；
though；　of　course；　it　could　not　be　avoided。'

A　month　passed　away；　throughout　this　period；　Cytherea　visited　him　as
often　as　the　limited　time　at　her　command　would　allow；　and　wore　as
cheerful　a　countenance　as　the　womanly　determination　to　do　nothing
which　might　depress　him　could　enable　her　to　wear。　　Another　letter
from　him　then　told　her　these　additional　facts：

'The　doctors　find　they　are　again　on　the　wrong　tack。　　They　cannot
make　out　what　the　disease　is。　　O　Cytherea！　how　I　wish　they　knew！
This　suspense　is　wearing　me　out。　　Could　not　Miss　Aldclyffe　spare　you
for　a　day？　　Do　come　to　me。　　We　will　talk　about　the　best　course　then。
I　am　sorry　to　complain；　but　I　am　worn　out。〃

Cytherea　went　to　Miss　Aldclyffe；　and　told　her　of　the　melancholy　turn
her　brother's　illness　had　taken。　　Miss　Aldclyffe　at　once　said　that
Cytherea　might　go；　and　offered　to　do　anything　to　assist　her　which
lay　in　her　power。　　Cytherea's　eyes　beamed　gratitude　as　she　turned　to
leave　the　room；　and　hasten　to　the　station。

'O；　Cytherea；'　said　Miss　Aldclyffe；　calling　her　back；　　'just　one
word。　　Has　Mr。　Manston　spoken　to　you　lately？'

'Yes；'　said　Cytherea；　blushing　timorously。

'He　proposed？'

'Yes。'

'And　you　refused　him？'

'Yes。'

'Tut；　tut！　　Now　listen　to　my　advice；'　said　Miss　Aldclyffe
emphatically；　'and　accept　him　before　he　changes　his　mind。　　The
chance　which　he　offers　you　of　settling　in　life　is　one　that　may
possibly；　probably；　not　occur　again。　　His　position　is　good　and
secure；　and　the　life　of　his　wife　would　be　a　happy　one。　　You　may　not
be　sure　that　you　love　him　madly；　but　suppose　you　are　not　sure？　　My
father　used　to　say　to　me　as　a　child　when　he　was　teaching　me　whist；
〃When　in　doubt　win　the　trick！〃　　That　advice　is　ten　times　as　valuable
to　a　woman　on　the　subject　of　matrimony。　　In　refusing　a　man　there　is
always　the　risk　that　you　may　never　get　another　offer。'

'Why　didn't　you　win　the　trick　when　you　were　a　girl？'　said　Cytherea。

'Come；　my　lady　Pert；　I'm　not　the　text；'　said　Miss　Aldclyffe；　her
face　glowing　like　fire。

Cytherea　laughed　stealthily。

'I　was　about　to　say；'　resumed　Miss　Aldclyffe　severely；　'that　here　is
Mr。　Manston　waiting　with　the　tenderest　solicitude　for　you；　and　you
overlooking　it；　as　if　it　were　altogether　beneath　you。　　Think　how　you
might　benefit　your　sick　brother　if　you　were　Mrs。　Manston。　　You　will
please　me　VERY　MUCH　by　giving　him　some　encouragement。　　You
understand　me；　Cythie　dear？'

Cytherea　was　silent。

'And；'　said　Miss　Aldclyffe；　still　more　emphatically；　'on　your
promising　that　you　will　accept　him　some　time　this　year；　I　will　take
especial　care　of　your　brother。　　You　are　listening；　Cytherea？'

'Yes；'　she　whispered；　leaving　the　room。

She　went　to　Budmouth；　passed　the　day　with　her　brother；　and　returned
to　Knapwater　wretched　and　full　of　foreboding。　　Owen　had　looked
startlingly　thin　and　palethinner　and　paler　than　ever　she　had　seen
him　before。　　The　brother　and　sister　had　that　day　decided　that
notwithstanding　the　drain　upon　their　slender　resources；　another
surgeon　should　see　him。　　Time　was　everything。

Owen　told　her　the　result　in　his　next　letter：

'The　three　practitioners　between　them　have　at　last　hit　the　nail　on
the　head；　I　hope。　　They　probed　the　place；　and　discovered　that　the
secret　lay　in　the　bone。　　I　underwent　an　operation　for　its　removal
three　days　ago　（after　taking　chloroform）。　。　。　　Thank　God　it　is　over。
Though　I　am　so　weak；　my　spirits　are　rather　better。　　I　wonder　when　I
shall　be　at　work　again？　　I　asked　the　surgeons　how　long　it　would　be
first。　　I　said　a　month？　　They　shook　their　heads。　　A　year？　I　said。
Not　so　long；　they　said。　　Six　months？　I　inquired。　　They　would　not；　or
could　not；　tell　me。　　But　never　mind。

'Run　down；　when　you　have　half　a　day　to　spare；　for　the　hours　drag　on
so　drearily。　　O　Cytherea；　you　can't　think　how　drearily！'

She　went。　　Immediately　on　her　departure　Miss　Aldclyffe　sent　a　note
to　the　Old　House；　to　Manston。　　On　the　maiden's　return；　tired　and
sick　at　heart　as　usual；　she　found　Manston　at　the　station　awaiting
her。　　He　asked　politely　if　he　might　accompany　her　to　Knapwater。　　She
tacitly　acquiesced。　　During　their　walk　he　inquired　the　particulars
of　her　brother's　illness；　and　with　an　irresistible　desire　to　pour
out　her　trouble　to　some　one；　she　told　him　of　the　length　of　time
which　must　elapse　before　he　could　be　strong　again；　and　of　the　lack
of　comfort　in　lodgings。

Manston　was　silent　awhile。　　Then　he　said　impetuously：　　'Miss　Graye；
I　will　not　mince　mattersI　love　youyou　know　it。　　Stratagem　they
say　is　fair　in　love；　and　I　am　compelled　to　adopt　it　now。　　Forgive
me；　for　I　cannot　help　it。　　Consent　to　be　my　wife　at　any　time　that
may　suit　youany　remote　day　you　may　name　will　satisfy　meand　you
shall　find　him　well　provided　for。'

For　the　first　time　in　her　life　she　truly　dreaded　the　handsome　man　at
her　side　who　pleaded　thus　selfishly；　and　shrank　from　the　hot
voluptuous　nature　of　his　passion　for　her；　which；　disguise　it　as　he
might　under　a　quiet　and　polished　exterior；　at　times　radiated　forth
with　a　scorching　white　heat。　　She　perceived　how　animal　was　the　love
which　bargained。

'I　do　not　love　you；　Mr。　Manston；'　she　replied　coldly。

5。　　FROM　THE　FIRST　TO　THE　TWENTY…SEVENTH　OF　AUGUST

The　long　sunny　days　of　the　later　summer…time　brought　only　the　same
dreary　accounts　from　Budmouth；　and　saw　Cytherea　paying　the　same　sad
visits。

She　grew　perceptibly　weaker；　in　body　and　mind。　　Manston　still
persisted　in　his　suit；　but　with　more　of　his　former　indirectness；　now
that　he　saw　how　unexpectedly　well　she　stood　an　open　attack。　　His　was
the　system　of　Dares　at　the　Sicilian　games

　　　　　'He；　like　a　captain　who　beleaguers　round
　　　　　　Some　strong…built　castle　on　a　rising　ground；
　　　　　　Views　all　the　approaches　with　observing　eyes；
　　　　　　This　and　that　other　part　again　he　tries；
　　　　　　And　more　on　industry　than　force　relies。'

Miss　Aldclyffe　made　it　appear　more　clearly　than　ever　that　aid　to