the love affairs of a bibliomaniac-第2章
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le for that delicate health which has attended me through life。
My grandmother encouraged my disinclination to play； she recognized in me that certain seriousness of mind which I remember to have heard her say I inherited from her； and she determined to make of me what she had failed to make of any of her own sonsa professional expounder of the only true faith of Congregationalism。 For this reason； and for the further reason that at the tender age of seven years I publicly avowed my desire to become a clergyman； an ambition wholly sincere at that time for these reasons was I duly installed as prime favorite in my grandmother's affections。
As distinctly as though it were but yesterday do I recall the time when I met my first love。 It was in the front room of the old homestead； and the day was a day in spring。 The front room answered those purposes which are served by the so…called parlor of the present time。 I remember the low ceiling； the big fireplace； the long； broad mantelpiece； the andirons and fender of brass； the tall clock with its jocund and roseate moon； the bellows that was always wheezy； the wax flowers under a glass globe in the corner； an allegorical picture of Solomon's temple； another picture of little Samuel at prayer； the high； stiff…back chairs； the foot…stool with its gayly embroidered top； the mirror in its gilt…and…black frameall these things I remember well； and with feelings of tender reverence； and yet that day I now recall was well…nigh threescore and ten years ago！
Best of all I remember the case in which my grandmother kept her books； a mahogany structure； massive and dark； with doors composed of diamond…shaped figures of glass cunningly set in a framework of lead。 I was in my seventh year then； and I had learned to read I know not when。 The back and current numbers of the ‘‘Well… Spring'' had fallen prey to my insatiable appetite for literature。 With the story of the small boy who stole a pin； repented of and confessed that crime； and then became a good and great man； I was as familiar as if I myself had invented that ingenious and instructive tale； I could lisp the moral numbers of Watts and the didactic hymns of Wesley； and the annual reports of the American Tract Society had already revealed to me the sphere of usefulness in which my grandmother hoped I would ultimately figure with discretion and zeal。 And yet my heart was free； wholly untouched of that gentle yet deathless passion which was to become my delight； my inspiration； and my solace； it awaited the coming of its first love。
Upon one of those shelves yonderit is the third shelf from the top； fourth compartment to the rightis that old copy of the ‘‘New England Primer；'' a curious little； thin； square book in faded blue board covers。 A good many times I have wondered whether I ought not to have the precious little thing sumptuously attired in the finest style known to my binder； indeed； I have often been tempted to exchange the homely blue board covers for flexible levant； for it occurred to me that in this way I could testify to my regard for the treasured volume。 I spoke of this one day to my friend Judge Methuen； for I have great respect for his judgment。
‘‘It would be a desecration；'' said he； ‘‘to deprive the book of its original binding。 What！ Would you tear off and cast away the covers which have felt the caressing pressure of the hands of those whose memory you revere？ The most sacred of sentiments should forbid that act of vandalism！''
I never think or speak of the ‘‘New England Primer'' that I do not recall Captivity Waite； for it was Captivity who introduced me to the Primer that day in the springtime of sixty…three years ago。 She was of my age； a bright； pretty girla very pretty； an exceptionally pretty girl； as girls go。 We belonged to the same Sunday…school class。 I remember that upon this particular day she brought me a russet apple。 It was she who discovered the Primer in the mahogany case； and what was not our joy as we turned over the tiny pages together and feasted our eyes upon the vivid pictures and perused the absorbingly interesting text！ What wonder that together we wept tears of sympathy at the harrowing recital of the fate of John Rogers！
Even at this remote date I cannot recall that experience with Captivity； involving as it did the wood…cut representing the unfortunate Rogers standing in an impossible bonfire and being consumed thereby in the presence of his wife and their numerous progeny； strung along in a pitiful line across the picture for artistic effecteven now； I say； I cannot contemplate that experience and that wood…cut without feeling lumpy in my throat and moist about my eyes。
How lasting are the impressions made upon the youthful mind！ Through the many busy years that have elapsed since first I tasted the thrilling sweets of that miniature Primer I have not forgotten that ‘‘young Obadias； David； Josias； all were pious''； that ‘‘Zaccheus he did climb the Tree our Lord to see''； and that ‘‘Vashti for Pride was set aside''； and still with many a sympathetic shudder and tingle do I recall Captivity's overpowering sense of horror； and mine； as we lingered long over the portraitures of Timothy flying from Sin； of Xerxes laid out in funeral garb； and of proud Korah's troop partly submerged。
My Book and Heart Must never part。
So runs one of the couplets in this little Primer…book； and right truly can I say that from the springtime day sixty…odd years ago； when first my heart went out in love to this little book； no change of scene or of custom no allurement of fashion； no demand of mature years； has abated that love。 And herein is exemplified the advantage which the love of books has over the other kinds of love。 Women are by nature fickle； and so are men； their friendships are liable to dissipation at the merest provocation or the slightest pretext。
Not so； however； with books； for books cannot change。 A thousand years hence they are what you find them to…day； speaking the same words； holding forth the same cheer； the same promise； the same comfort； always constant； laughing with those who laugh and weeping with those who weep。
Captivity Waite was an exception to the rule governing her sex。 In all candor I must say that she approached closely to a realization of the ideals of a booka sixteenmo； if you please； fair to look upon； of clear； clean type； well ordered and well edited； amply margined； neatly bound； a human look whose text； as represented by her disposition and her mind； corresponded felicitously with the comeliness of her exterior。 This child was the great…great…granddaughter of Benjamin Waite； whose family was carried off by Indians in 1677。 Benjamin followed the party to Canada； and after many months of search found and ransomed the captives。
The historian has properly said that the names of Benjamin Waite and his companion in their perilous journey through the wilderness to Canada should ‘‘be memorable in all the sad or happy homes of this Connecticut valley forever。'' The child who was my friend in youth； and to whom I may allude occasionally hereafter in my narrative； bore the name of one of the survivors of this Indian outrage； a name to be revered as a remembrancer of sacrifice and heroism。
II
THE BIRTH OF A NEW PASSION
When I was thirteen years old I went to visit my Uncle Cephas。 My grandmother would not have parted with me even for that fortnight had she not actually been compelled to。 It happened that she was called to a meeting of the American Tract Society； and it was her intention to pay a visit to her cousin； Royall Eastman； after she had discharged the first and imperative duty she owed the society。 Mrs。 Deacon Ranney was to have taken me and provided for my temporal and spiritual wants during grandmother's absence； but at the last moment the deacon came down with one of his spells of quinsy； and no other alternative remained but to pack me off to Nashua； where my Uncle Cephas lived。
This involved considerable expense； for the stage fare was three shillings each way： it came particularly hard on grandmother。 inasmuch as she had just paid her road tax and had not yet received her semi…annual dividends on her Fitchburg Railway stock。 Indifferent； however； to every sense of extravagance and to all other considerations except those of personal pride； I rode away atop of the stage…coach； full of exultation。 As we rattled past the Waite house I waved my cap to Captivity and indulged in the pleasing hope that she would be lonesome without me。 Much of the satisfaction of going away arises from the thought that those you leave behind are likely to be wretchedly miserable during your absence。
My Uncle Cephas lived in a house so very different from my grandmother's that it took me some time to get used to the place。 Uncle Cephas was a lawyer； and his style of living was not at all like grandmother's； he was to have been a minister； but at twelve years of age he attended the county fair； and that incident seemed to change the whole bent of his life。 At twenty…one he married Samantha Talbott； and that was another blow to grandmother； who always declared that the Talbotts were a shiftless lot。 However； I was agreeably impressed with Uncle Cephas and Aunt 'Manthy； for they welcomed me very cordially and turned me over to my little cousins； Mary and Henry； and bade us three make merry to the best of our ability。 These first favorable impressions of my uncle's family were confirmed when I discovered that for supper we had hot biscuit and dried beef warmed up in cream gravy； a diet which； with all due respect to grandmother； I considered much more desirable than dry bread and dried… apple sauce。
Aha； old Crusoe！ I see thee now in yonder case smiling out upon me as cheerily as thou didst smile those many years ago when to a little boy thou broughtest the message of Romance！ And I do love thee still； and I shall always love thee； not only for thy benefaction in those ancient days； but also for the light and the cheer which thy genius brings to all ages and conditions of humanity。
My Uncle Cephas's library was stored with a large variety of pleasing literature。 I did not observe a glut of theological publications； and I will admit that I felt somewhat aggrieved personally when； in answer to my inquiry； I was told that there was no ‘‘New England Primer'' in the collection。 But this feeling was soon dissipated by the absorbing interest I took in De Foe's masterpiece； a work unparalleled in the realm of fiction。
I shall not say that ‘‘Robinson Crusoe'' supplanted the Primer in my affections； this would not be true。 I prefer to say what is the truth； it was my second love。 Here again we behold another advantage which the lover of books has over the lover of women。 If he be a genuine lover he can and should love any number of books； and this polybibliophily is not to the disparagement of any one of that number。 But it is held by the expounders of our civil and our moral laws that he who loveth one woman to the exclusion of all other women speaketh by that action the best and highest praise both of his own sex and of hers。
I thank God continually that it
