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which appear in these memoirs would be highly mysterious to the
reader�察�indeed incomprehensible。 Perhaps no two individuals were
ever more unlike in mind and disposition than my brother and
myself�此 �as light is opposed to darkness�察�so was that happy�察�
brilliant�察�cheerful child to the sad and melancholy being who
sprang from the same stock as himself�察�and was nurtured by the same
milk。
Once�察�when travelling in an Alpine country�察�I arrived at a
considerable elevation�察�I saw in the distance�察�far below�察�a
beautiful stream hastening to the ocean�察�its rapid waters here
sparkling in the sunshine�察�and there tumbling merrily in cascades。
On its banks were vineyards and cheerful villages�察�close to where I
stood�察�in a granite basin with steep and precipitous sides�察�
slumbered a deep�察�dark lagoon�察�shaded by black pines�察�cypresses�察�
and yews。 It was a wild�察�savage spot�察�strange and singular�察�ravens
hovered above the pines�察�filling the air with their uncouth notes�察�
pies chattered�察�and I heard the cry of an eagle from a neighbouring
peak�察�there lay the lake�察�the dark�察�solitary�察�and almost
inaccessible lake�察�gloomy shadows were upon it�察�which�察�strangely
modified�察�as gusts of wind agitated the surface�察�occasionally
assumed the shape of monsters。 So I stood on the Alpine elevation�察�
and looked now on the gay distant river�察�and now at the dark
granite´encircled lake close beside me in the lone solitude�察�and I
thought of my brother and myself。 I am no moraliser�察�but the gay
and rapid river�察�and the dark and silent lake�察�were�察�of a verity�察�
no had emblems of us two。
So far from being quick and clever like my brother�察�and able to
rival the literary feat which I have recorded of him�察�many years
elapsed before I was able to understand the nature of letters�察�or
to connect them。 A lover of nooks and retired corners�察�I was as a
child in the habit of fleeing from society�察�and of sitting for
hours together with my head on my breast。 What I was thinking
about�察�it would be difficult to say at this distance of time�察�I
remember perfectly well�察�however�察�being ever conscious of a
peculiar heaviness within me�察�and at times of a strange sensation
of fear�察�which occasionally amounted to horror�察�and for which I
could assign no real cause whatever。
By nature slow of speech�察�I took no pleasure in conversation�察�nor
in hearing the voices of my fellow´creatures。 When people
addressed me�察�I not unfrequently�察�especially if they were
strangers�察�turned away my head from them�察�and if they persisted in
their notice burst into tears�察�which singularity of behaviour by no
means tended to dispose people in my favour。 I was as much
disliked as my brother was deservedly beloved and admired。 My
parents�察�it is true�察�were always kind to me�察�and my brother�察�who
was good nature itself�察�was continually lavishing upon me every
mark of affection。
There was�察�however�察�one individual who�察�in the days of my
childhood�察�was disposed to form a favourable opinion of me。 One
day�察�a Jew ´ I have quite forgotten the circumstance�察�but I was
long subsequently informed of it ´ one day a travelling Jew knocked
at the door of a farmhouse in which we had taken apartments�察�I was
near at hand sitting in the bright sunshine�察�drawing strange lines
on the dust with my fingers�察�an ape and dog were my companions�察�the
Jew looked at me and asked me some questions�察�to which�察�though I
was quite able to speak�察�I returned no answer。 On the door being
opened�察�the Jew�察�after a few words�察�probably relating to pedlery�察�
demanded who the child was�察�sitting in the sun�察�the maid replied
that I was her mistress's youngest son�察�a child weak HERE�察�pointing
to her forehead。 The Jew looked at me again�察�and then said�此 �''Pon
my conscience�察�my dear�察�I believe that you must be troubled there
yourself to tell me any such thing。 It is not my habit to speak to
children�察�inasmuch as I hate them�察�because they often follow me and
fling stones after me�察�but I no sooner looked at that child than I
was forced to speak to it ´ his not answering me shows his sense�察�
for it has never been the custom of the wise to fling away their
words in indifferent talk and conversation�察�the child is a sweet
child�察�and has all the look of one of our people's children。 Fool�察�
indeed� �did I not see his eyes sparkle just now when the monkey
seized the dog by the ear�拭 � they shone like my own diamonds ´ does
your good lady want any ´ real and fine�拭 �Were it not for what you
tell me�察�I should say it was a prophet's child。 Fool�察�indeed� �he
can write already�察�or I'll forfeit the box which I carry on my
back�察�and for which I should be loth to take two hundred pounds��'
He then leaned forward to inspect the lines which I had traced。
All of a sudden he started back�察�and grew white as a sheet�察�then�察�
taking off his hat�察�he made some strange gestures to me�察�cringing�察�
chattering�察�and showing his teeth�察�and shortly departed�察�muttering
something about 'holy letters��' and talking to himself in a strange
tongue。 The words of the Jew were in due course of time reported
to my mother�察�who treasured them in her heart�察�and from that moment
began to entertain brighter hopes of her youngest born than she had
ever before ventured to foster。
CHAPTER II
Barracks and lodgings ´ A camp ´ The viper ´ A delicate child ´
Blackberry time ´ MEUN and TUUM ´ Hythe ´ The Golgotha ´ Daneman's
skull ´ Superhuman stature ´ Stirring times ´ The sea´bord。
I HAVE been a wanderer the greater part of my life�察�indeed I
remember only two periods�察�and these by no means lengthy�察�when I
was�察�strictly speaking�察�stationary。 I was a soldier's son�察�and as
the means of my father were by no means sufficient to support two
establishments�察�his family invariably attended him wherever he
went�察�so that from my infancy I was accustomed to travelling and
wandering�察�and looked upon a monthly change of scene and residence
as a matter of course。 Sometimes we lived in barracks�察�sometimes
in lodgings�察�but generally in the former�察�always eschewing the
latter from motives of economy�察�save when the barracks were
inconvenient and uncomfortable�察�and they must have been highly so
indeed�察�to have discouraged us from entering them�察�for though we
were gentry ��pray bear that in mind�察�gentle reader���察�gentry by
birth�察�and incontestably so by my father's bearing the commission
of good old George the Third�察�we were not FINE GENTRY�察�but people
who could put up with as much as any genteel Scotch family who find
it convenient to live on a third floor in London�察�or on a sixth at
Edinburgh or Glasgow。 It was not a little that could discourage
us�此 �we once lived within the canvas walls of a camp�察�at a place
called Pett�察�in Sussex�察�and I believe it was at this place that
occurred the first circumstance�察�or adventure�察�call it which you
will�察�that I can remember in connection with myself�此 �it was a
strange one�察�and I will relate it。
It happened that my brother and myself were playing one evening in
a sandy lane�察�in the neighbourhood of this Pett camp�察�our mother
was at a slight distance。 All of a sudden�察�a bright yellow�察�and�察�
to my infantine eye�察�beautiful and glorious�察�object made its
appearance at the top of the bank from between the thick quickset�察�
and�察�gliding down�察�began to move across the lane to the other side�察�
like a line of golden light。 Uttering a cry of pleasure�察�I sprang
forward�察�and seized it nearly by the middle。 A strange sensation
of numbing coldness seemed to pervade my whole arm�察�which surprised
me the more�察�as the object to the eye appeared so warm and sunlike。
I did not drop it�察�however�察�but�察�holding it up�察�looked at it
intently�察�as its head dangled about a foot from my hand。 It made
no resistance�察�I felt not even the slightest struggle�察�but now my
brother began to scream and shriek like one possessed。 'O mother�察�
mother��' said he�察�'the viper� � my brother has a viper in his
hand��' He then�察�like one frantic�察�made an effort to snatch the
creature away from me。 The viper now hissed amain�察�and raised its
head�察�in which were eyes like hot coals�察�menacing�察�not myself�察�but
my brother。 I dropped my captive�察�for I saw my mother running
towards me�察�and the reptile�察�after standing for a moment nearly
erect�察�and still hissing furiously�察�made off�察�and disappeared。 The
whole scene is now before me�察�as vividly as if it occurred
yesterday ´ the gorgeous viper�察�my poor dear frantic brother�察�my
agitated parent�察�and a frightened hen clucking under the bushes ´
and yet I was not three years old。
It is my firm belief that certain individuals possess an inherent
power�察�or fascination�察�over certain creatures�察�otherwise I should
be unable to account for many feats which I have witnessed�察�and�察�
indeed�察�borne a share in�察�connected with the taming of brutes and
reptiles。 I have known a savage and vicious mare�察�whose stall it
was dangerous to approach�察�even when bearing provender�察�welcome�察�
nevertheless�察�with every appearance of pleasure�察�an uncouth�察�wiry´
headed man�察�with a frightfully seamed face�察�and an iron hook
supplying the place of his right hand�察�one whom the animal had
never seen before�察�playfully bite his hair�察�and cover his face with
gentle and endearing kisses�察�and I have already stated how a viper
would permit�察�without resentment�察�one child to take it up in his
hand�察�whilst it showed its dislike to the approach of another by
the fiercest hissings。 Philosophy can explain many strange things�察�
but there are some which are a far pitch above her�察�and this is
one。
I should scarcely relate another circumstance which occurred about
this time but for a singular effect which it produced upon my
constitution。 Up to this period I had been rather a delicate
child�察�whereas�察�almost immediately after the occurrence to which I
allude�察�I became both hale and vigorous�察�to the great astonishment
of my parents�察�who naturally enough expected that it would produce
quite a contrary effect。
It happened that my brother and myself were disporting ourselves in
certain fields near the good town of Canterbury。 A female servant
had attended us�察�in order to take care that we came to no mischief�此 �
she�察�however�察�it seems�察�had matters of her own to attend to�察�and�察�
allowing us to go where we listed�察�remained in one corner of a
field�察�in earnest conversation with a red´coated dragoon。 Now it
chanced to be blackberry time�察�and the two children wandered under
the hedges�察�peering anxiously among them in quest of that trash so
grateful to urchins of their degree。 We did not find much of it�察�
however�察�and were soon separated in the pursuit。 All at once I
stood still�察�and could scarcely believe my eyes。 I had come to a
spot where�察�almost covering the hedge�察�hung clus