the secret sharer-第8章
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like the mouth of a biggish riverwith some towns； no doubt； not far up。
It's the best chance for you that I can see。〃
〃Anything。 Koh…ring let it be。〃
He looked thoughtfully at the chart as if surveying chances and
distances from a lofty heightand following with his eyes his own
figure wandering on the blank land of Cochin…China； and then passing
off that piece of paper clean out of sight into uncharted regions。
And it was as if the ship had two captains to plan her course for her。
I had been so worried and restless running up and down that I
had not had the patience to dress that day。 I had remained
in my sleeping suit； with straw slippers and a soft floppy hat。
The closeness of the heat in the gulf had been most oppressive；
and the crew were used to seeing me wandering in that airy attire。
〃She will clear the south point as she heads now；〃 I whispered into his ear。
〃Goodness only knows when； though； but certainly after dark。
I'll edge her in to half a mile； as far as I may be able to judge
in the dark〃
〃Be careful；〃 he murmured； warninglyand I realized suddenly
that all my future； the only future for which I was fit；
would perhaps go irretrievably to pieces in any mishap
to my first command。
I could not stop a moment longer in the room。 I motioned him to get out
of sight and made my way on the poop。 That unplayful cub had the watch。
I walked up and down for a while thinking things out； then beckoned him over。
〃Send a couple of hands to open the two quarter…deck ports；〃
I said； mildly。
He actually had the impudence； or else so forgot himself in his wonder
at such an incomprehensible order； as to repeat：
〃Open the quarter…deck ports！ What for； sir？〃
〃The only reason you need concern yourself about is because I tell you
to do so。 Have them open wide and fastened properly。〃
He reddened and went off； but I believe made some jeering remark
to the carpenter as to the sensible practice of ventilating
a ship's quarter…deck。 I know he popped into the mate's cabin
to impart the fact to him because the whiskers came on deck；
as it were by chance； and stole glances at me from below
for signs of lunacy or drunkenness； I suppose。
A little before supper； feeling more restless than ever； I rejoined；
for a moment； my second self。 And to find him sitting so quietly
was surprising； like something against nature； inhuman。
I developed my plan in a hurried whisper。
〃I shall stand in as close as I dare and then put her round。
I will presently find means to smuggle you out of here
into the sail locker； which communicates with the lobby。
But there is an opening； a sort of square for hauling the sails out；
which gives straight on the quarter…deck and which is never
closed in fine weather； so as to give air to the sails。
When the ship's way is deadened in stays and all the hands
are aft at the main braces you will have a clear road to slip
out and get overboard through the open quarter…deck port。
I've had them both fastened up。 Use a rope's end to lower
yourself into the water so as to avoid a splashyou know。
It could be heard and cause some beastly complication。〃
He kept silent for a while； then whispered； 〃I understand。〃
〃I won't be there to see you go；〃 I began with an effort。
〃The rest 。 。 。 I only hope I have understood； too。〃
〃You have。 From first to last〃and for the first time there
seemed to be a faltering； something strained in his whisper。
He caught hold of my arm； but the ringing of the supper bell
made me start。 He didn't though； he only released his grip。
After supper I didn't come below again till well past eight
o'clock。 The faint； steady breeze was loaded with dew； and the wet；
darkened sails held all there was of propelling power in it。
The night； clear and starry； sparkled darkly； and the opaque；
lightless patches shifting slowly against the low stars
were the drifting islets。 On the port bow there was a big
one more distant and shadowily imposing by the great space
of sky it eclipsed。
On opening the door I had a back view of my very own self looking at a chart。
He had come out of the recess and was standing near the table。
〃Quite dark enough；〃 I whispered。
He stepped back and leaned against my bed with a level； quiet glance。
I sat on the couch。 We had nothing to say to each other。
Over our heads the officer of the watch moved here and there。
Then I heard him move quickly。 I knew what that meant。
He was making for the companion； and presently his voice was
outside my door。
〃We are drawing in pretty fast； sir。 Land looks rather close。〃
〃Very well；〃 I answered。 〃I am coming on deck directly。〃
I waited till he was gone out of the cuddy； then rose。 My double moved too。
The time had come to exchange our last whispers； for neither of us was ever
to hear each other's natural voice。
〃Look here！〃 I opened a drawer and took out three sovereigns。
〃Take this anyhow。 I've got six and I'd give you the lot；
only I must keep a little money to buy some fruit and vegetables
for the crew from native boats as we go through Sunda Straits。〃
He shook his head。
〃Take it；〃 I urged him； whispering desperately。
〃No one can tell what〃
He smiled and slapped meaningly the only pocket of the sleeping jacket。
It was not safe； certainly。 But I produced a large old silk handkerchief
of mine； and tying the three pieces of gold in a corner； pressed it on him。
He was touched； I supposed； because he took it at last and tied it quickly
round his waist under the jacket； on his bare skin。
Our eyes met； several seconds elapsed； till； our glances
still mingled； I extended my hand and turned the lamp out。
Then I passed through the cuddy； leaving the door of my room wide open。
。 。 。 〃Steward！〃
He was still lingering in the pantry in the greatness of his zeal；
giving a rub…up to a plated cruet stand the last thing before going to bed。
Being careful not to wake up the mate； whose room was opposite； I spoke
in an undertone。
He looked round anxiously。 〃Sir！〃
〃Can you get me a little hot water from the galley？〃
〃I am afraid； sir； the galley fire's been out for some time now。〃
〃Go and see。〃
He flew up the stairs。
〃Now；〃 I whispered； loudly； into the saloontoo loudly；
perhaps； but I was afraid I couldn't make a sound。
He was by my side in an instantthe double captain slipped past
the stairsthrough a tiny dark passage 。 。 。 a sliding door。
We were in the sail locker； scrambling on our knees over the sails。
A sudden thought struck me。 I saw myself wandering
barefooted； bareheaded； the sun beating on my dark poll。
I snatched off my floppy hat and tried hurriedly in the dark
to ram it on my other self。 He dodged and fended off silently。
I wonder what he thought had come to me before he understood
and suddenly desisted。 Our hands met gropingly；
lingered united in a steady； motionless clasp for a second。
。 。 。 No word was breathed by either of us when they separated。
I was standing quietly by the pantry door when the steward returned。
〃Sorry； sir。 Kettle barely warm。 Shall I light the spirit lamp？〃
〃Never mind。〃
I came out on deck slowly。 It was now a matter of conscience
to shave the land as close as possiblefor now he must go overboard
whenever the ship was put in stays。 Must！ There could be no going
back for him。 After a moment I walked over to leeward and my
heart flew into my mouth at the nearness of the land on the bow。
Under any other circumstances I would not have held on a minute longer。
The second mate had followed me anxiously。
I looked on till I felt I could command my voice。
〃She will weather；〃 I said then in a quiet tone。
〃Are you going to try that； sir？〃 he stammered out incredulously。
I took no notice of him and raised my tone just enough to be heard
by the helmsman。
〃Keep her good full。〃
〃Good full； sir。〃
The wind fanned my cheek； the sails slept； the world was silent。
The strain of watching the dark loom of the land grow bigger and denser
was too much for me。 I had shut my eyesbecause the ship must go closer。
She must！ The stillness was intolerable。 Were we standing still？
When I opened my eyes the second view started my heart with a thump。
The black southern hill of Koh…ring seemed to hang right over
the ship like a towering fragment of everlasting night。
On that enormous mass of blackness there was not a gleam to
be seen； not a sound to be heard。 It was gliding irresistibly
towards us and yet seemed already within reach of the hand。
I saw the vague figures of the watch grouped in the waist；
gazing in awed silence。
〃Are you going on； sir？〃 inquired an unsteady voice at my elbow。
I ignored it。 I had to go on。
〃Keep her full。 Don't check her way。 That won't do now；〃
I said warningly。
〃I can't see the sails very well；〃 the helmsman answered me；
in strange； quavering tones。
Was she close enough？ Already she was； I won't say in the shadow of the land；
but in the very blackness of it； already swallowed up as it were； gone too
close to be recalled； gone from me altogether。
〃Give the mate a call；〃 I said to the young man who stood at my elbow
as still as death。 〃And turn all hands up。〃
My tone had a borrowed loudness reverberated from the height of the land。
Several voices cried out together： 〃We are all on deck； sir。〃
Then stillness again； with the great shadow gliding closer；
towering higher； without a light； without a sound。
Such a hush had fallen on the ship that she might have been a bark
of the dead floating in slowly under the very gate of Erebus。
〃My God！ Where are we？〃
It was the mate moaning at my elbow。 He was thunderstruck；
and as it were deprived of the moral support of his whiskers。
He clapped his hands and absolutely cried out； 〃Lost！〃
〃Be quiet；〃 I said； sternly。
He lowered his tone； but I saw the shadowy gesture of his despair。
〃What are we doing here？〃
〃Looking for the land wind。〃
He made as if to tear his hair； and addressed me recklessly。
〃She will never get out。 You have done it； sir。 I knew it'd end in something
like this。 She will never weather； and you are too close now to stay。
She'll drift ashore before she's round。 O my God！〃
I caught his arm as he was raising it to batter his poor devoted head；
and shook it violently。
〃She's ashore already；〃 he wailed； trying to tear himself away。
〃Is she？ 。 。 。 Keep good full there！〃
〃Good full； sir；〃 cried the helmsman in a frightened； thin； childlike voice。
I hadn't let go the mate's arm and went on shaking it。 〃Ready about；
do you hear？ You go forward〃shake〃and stop there〃shake〃and hold
your noise〃shake〃 and see these head…sheets properly overhauled〃
shake； shakeshake。
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